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I live to write; I write to live.

Without words, nothing would have any meaning.

This is my journal-for-everything. Fic is public, and will always be public. Original fiction is friendslocked, and are most entries that don't contain fic. Comment if you want to be added. I don't bite.

Fanfiction from 2005-2010
( Ace Attorney ) ( Bleach ) ( Final Fantasy VII ) ( Fullmetal Alchemist ) ( Gakuen Heaven ) ( Gundam Wing ) ( Katekyo Hitman Reborn! ) ( Ouran High School Host Club ) ( Prince of Tennis )( Sengoku BASARA ) ( Saiyuki ) ( Miscaellaneous Fandoms (Trigun, Naruto) ) ( Multiple Fandoms/Crossovers ) ( Original Fiction (Terribad from 2006 or so) )

Fanfiction from 2010-present
( Comics (DC/Marvel) ) ( Inception (+1 RPF) ) ( Lord of the Rings ) ( Lord of the Rings RPF ) ( RPF-Inspired Crossovers ) ( Misc Fandoms (GoT RPF, Sharpe) )

THIS IS GEN. ENTIRELY GEN.

Finally. Lollll Kyouya-muse, you are really fail. Tamaki can do it why can't youuuu. xDD

Symphony Romantica

Characters/Pairings: Tamaki
Rating: G
Words: 510
Summary: 31_days prompt: October 13 – “fool for love”. Tamaki is a fool, but he is a fool who loves, who believes, with all of his too-large heart. “Sometimes he plays songs of love unrequited, love unanswered, of a man dancing alone with his hands held outwards, frozen in the air.”

( Symphony Romantica )

Didn't I say something about this pairing and this fandom that will never let me go? Well, let me reiterate it. This is my ULTIMATE OTP. FOREVER AND EVER.

Kyouya give me back my sanity. This is inspired by the latest manga chapters, and how, despite Haruhi and Tamaki falling for each other all over the place, I will never stop believing in the TamaKyou. Because it's so TRUE.

I shall stop babbling and give you guys the fic.

Cat’s Cradle

Characters/Pairings: Tamaki/Kyouya, Tamaki/Haruhi, Host Club
Rating: PG-13
Words: 6521
Summary: Kyouya had been able to see the red threads between people’s fingers since the day he was born. A song of fate, and the breaking of. Tamaki was a man who could never be predictable.
Warnings: Rather vague spoilers up to Chapter 63.

( Cat's Cradle )

The title is a hint. This actually has background angst. My Kyouya always has some sort of angst in non-porn.

The Little Mermaid

Characters/Pairings: Tamaki/Kyouya, Haruhi, the Host Club
Rating: PG
Words: 2890
Summary: In which Tamaki and Kyouya save each other, metaphorically and literally. Or, at least, Tamaki tries.

( The Little Mermaid )

I believe I said something about NOT WRITING ANY MORE MORI/KYOUYA. I don't know where, but I remember saying it. Clearly.

I LIED.

So hey. More Mori/Kyouya Ouran fic. Why yes, I'm out of hiatus. The Prince of Tennis AU is waiting to be transcribed. Mei's War AU is still struggling in my brain, but it's going to be written down. Work is slowing down for me. Which means more time for fics! YAY! Cheer, damnit.

So anyway! Now that the Reveal is over at yaoi_challenge, I can post this here. This is for The Instigator, aka shayheyred. Please do click on the (fake) cut.

Needs

Characters/Pairings: Mori/Kyouya, with mentions of the Host Club
Rating: PG
Words: 2036
Summary: There are things Mori needs that Honey can't give him. And there are things Kyouya needs that only Mori understands. Four scenes; four revelations.

( Needs )

AND! Just so I won't annoy the fuck out of you with this completely useless entry... here, have some recs.

For meeeeeee:
Hunger [PG-13], by miss_arel. Hakkai/Gojyo art. Bondage. Smoking. Really, really fucking hot. Go click on it already.

Phantom Fire [NC-17], by sister_coyote. Roxas/Axel. In which Roxas in not a nice boy. I love the emotions in this , and how hot the sex is even though it's not all that explicit. I really like this, because it shows what a nasty boy OrganisationXII!Roxas is, and how Axel really has no self-preservation, and that he is a completely different person around and about Roxas. Many ♥♥♥s.

Not for me, but I still love them anyway:
and the sun, it's finally rising [NC-17], by postingwhore. It's my Tenipuri OT3. With crossdressing. Kimono research. Stupid!Sanada. Yanagi actually being there and being part of the trio instead of Sanada/Yukimura and Yanagi. How they are a threesome instead of a triangle. How they are so much of a trio even in their college days. Allusions of the past tennis days. And cameos from the rest of the club members. I'm babbling and not very good at describing SO GO READ IT ALREADY.

More Like Ourselves [R], by daegaer. It's WK fic by daegaer, what more rec do you need? Oh hell. I love the dynamics here, and Nagi's flailing and the swearing that Schuldig does and how Crawford and, to a lesser extent, Farfarello is just there even though he doesn't have much of a role and oh, the ruthlessness and assassin-stuff and the Aya cameo and just EVERYTHING. Go read it if you like Schwarz. It's glorious.

Blame the Moon [Worksafe], by hibem. MY FAVOURITE FIC OF THE WHOLE THING. Really, it's just that good. It's Saiyuki, Nii/Koumyou, but it's AU without really being AU. Reincarnation fic. Past lives. Koumyou being cryptic. Nii being himself. And. And. And just the language and the descriptions and just everything. Go read it even if you don't know Saiyuki. It's gorgeous. It deserves more comments. It deserves to be gaped at. Wow. Just... wow.

Falls the Shadow [NC-17], by laylah. Okay. I don't even like Xemnas or Saix all that much. But this? This WINS. Saix as a prophet. Xemnas being his cold, 'I don't feel because I have no heart' self. Allusions to Axel. Beautiful language. Just... everything. The tone, the atmosphere of the piece just fits the characters perfectly. It's beautiful. I'm repeating myself. Go read it already.

A Clock, Hands, the Night [R], by mistressrenet. I don't like Yami no Matsuei much except for Muraki. This one has one line with Muraki, but I love it. Hisoka is grown up here, and Oriya has grown older, but it's so subtle and yet so there in all of their behaviours. And the ending is heartbreaking. And Oriya, god, Oriya breaks my heart again here. So beautiful. ♥s.

The Melancholy of Naoe Nagi [PG-13], by misura. This is just FUNNY. Schuldig/Nagi/Omi with a really meddling Crawford. Nagi with a crush. Schuldig being potty-mouthed and soft-hearted and trying to help but not admitting it. It's just awfully cute.

AND THAT IS ALL. Have a good day and please don't turn as insane as I am. Thank you.

I have no idea how I managed to write this. None. Actually, I was just mostly following the Kyouya-voice in my head and typing down stuff without going through that writer-screener that I usually do. Which is probably why this fic is so odd, I guess.

It's been ages since I wrote something, I know. I'm sorry, but exams are eating my brains, leaving me like a zombie. Stress's killing me so much that I took a day off just so I won't go insane. Hopefully this won't affect my results, but hey. I don't really care. One more paper before I can relax, at least.

Also, flists, I apologise for the sheer weirdness of my previous entry. It's bizarre. I was incoherent and needed to rant. Yeah. But anyway! You guys aren't here to hear me whine, so here goes for the fic.

For the second Shadow Queen contest on the FRoP forums.

A Moment of Forgetfulness

Characters/Pairings: Tamaki/Kyouya, the Host Club, Fuyumi
Rating: PG
Words: 1938
Summary: ‘Kyouya was having a truly strange day at work.’ In which Kyouya has voices in his head, and forgets an important date. Tamaki is devious, to no one's surprise.

( A Moment of Forgetfulness )

I write very strangely when I'm tired, with a headache, and on pain meds. First introspective fic in ages. I'm still thinking of whether or not to pimp this. Hah.

Vapour and Snow

Characters/Pairings: Kyouya, with mentions of the rest of the Host Club. No pairings. SHOCK.
Rating: G
Words: 500
Summary: 'There are very few material things Kyouya loves. He does not love money, no matter what anyone might think.'

( Vapour and Snow )

Ahahaha. What is this fandom doing to me.

I'm writing het and Kyouya/Haruhi. Those on my friendlist knows this means that Dream have finally cracked and gone insane.

Ahahahaha. -headdesk-

Beta'd by fairymage and electrainverted. Much ♥s and thanks.

Two of Silver and One of Gold

Characters/Pairings: Tamaki/Haruhi, Kyouya->Tamaki and Kyouya/Haruhi
Rating: R
Words: 4703
Summary: Tamaki is dead, and Kyouya and Haruhi are left to pick up the pieces. Things definitely do not go well. Of grief, of making mistakes, and of moving on.

( Two of Silver and One of Gold )

Forgive the corny title. Please.

More episode 26 fic. I CANNOT HELP MYSELF. I was rewatching that episode today and realised that, hey! Mori got down from the carriage on the same side that Kyouya was... and my muses went slightly rabid on me. SO.

I should stop rambling and just give you the fic, shouldn't I.

Save the King

Characters/Pairings: Kyouya, Tamaki, the Host Club, with light Tamaki/Kyouya
Rating: PG-13, due to the swearing
Words: 2351+234 (omake)
Summary: Suppose that it wasn’t Haruhi who went after Tamaki. Suppose that the two third-years had a meddling streak, and Mori pushed Kyouya into the carriage. What would have changed? And what would have not?

( Save the King )

... more porn. For splinteredfate, because this is Turnabout's sequel and that was dedicated to her. Plus she wanted wet shirt smut. I deliver wet shirt smut. Even though the wet shirt doesn't get much screentime.

Also, everyone go read this. Or dream will be DDDDD=, only not.

Fair Play

Characters/Pairings: Tamaki/Kyouya
Rating: NC-17
Words: 1369
Summary: The merits of being right, and having a possessive, jealous boyfriend. Prompt: Wet shirt smut PWP, sequel to Turnabout (please read that first).

( Fair Play )