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• just another dreamer • ([personal profile] evocates) wrote2012-04-07 01:46 pm

[FIC] RPF: cartographies of silence [4/9]

I feel terrible that the last two parts have had tiny word counts. The one after this one is gigantic, I promise. =X

(... Or maybe I should apologise for the giant one. Oop.)

Also, almost at the halfway mark!

cartographies of silence
- PART 4/9: 29 March 2009

Characters/Pairing: Sean Bean/Viggo Mortensen
Rating: PG
Words: 925
Disclaimer: None of this happened. Product of my imagination!
Summary: [livejournal.com profile] 31_days, 9 April: Language cannot do everything. Sean and Viggo: moments caught after the Empire Awards. Viggo has learned patience well.

part 3: 14 February 2009


They really shouldn’t have drank that much. No matter how good the whiskey was, or how freely it flowed… they really shouldn’t have.

Viggo was out of breath with laughter, his hand alcohol-cold against Sean’s neck. It was a struggle to not lean in closer; to not tuck his face into Sean’s shoulder and breathe in his scent. They had finally stumbled out of the event, tucking themselves in a corner of the building with cigarettes in their hand and drops of rain sinking into their suit jackets. The event was over, the press had dispersed.

They were alone. As alone as anyone could be, in the midst of London. Viggo had no idea where Sean’s wife had gone, and he didn’t want to ask. He had Sean all to himself, his skin against his.

Viggo didn’t remember what he said during the prize presentation. He couldn’t think. Not with Sean so near; not with his dry lips leaving a brand on his cheek. It felt hot even right now, and Viggo gasped a breath as Sean laughed against his jaw, hiccupping slightly. His hair smelled of tobacco. Viggo took the chance; he reached out, cupped Sean’s jaw with his hand, and buried his nose into Sean’s hair. He could smell Sean’s cologne even through the heavy smell of alcohol stuck onto their skin; his next inhale was slow, deep and shuddering. He felt as if he had been marked on the inside, Sean’s scent like ink settling deep into his lungs, writing his name on the insides of his ribs.

“Vig,” Sean murmured. Viggo’s heart skipped a moment, but he didn’t pull away.

“Mm?”

“Don’t think I can drive ‘ome tonight,” he said, and Viggo could feel his teeth, sharp against the skin of his throat. There was a short gust of breath, and Viggo felt Sean’s ribs trembling gently against his fingers. When did his hand move to splay out against Sean’s back? “Don’t want ta go back anyway.”

Viggo nodded. He understood; the spectre of Georgina hung over the both of them. “Come back to my hotel room, then,” He said, and he laughed quietly. That wasn’t the way he wanted to invite Sean back to his house—or wherever he was living, given their lifestyles.

“Yeah? You got a couch?”

“Yeah.”

“Won’t want ta sleep in yer bed,” the words were almost completely slurred, the consonants melding into one another. Sheffield haunting the streets of London in the shape of Sean Bean’s drunken breath. “Can’t kick you out of it. Would be a terrible guest.”

Viggo sighed, his breath moving against Sean’s hair. His thumb circled against the knob of his spine, “I’ve got a couch. It’s a suite.”

“Mm.” They finally pulled apart. Viggo’s hand dropped to his side, and he tried his best to not have it curl into a fist. Sean’s eyes were red-rimmed, and he rubbed the back of his hand against his lips. “Bit funny. I’m the one who lives ‘round ‘ere, and yer the one offerin’ me yer bed.”

“You can offer yours to me tomorrow,” he offered, and they were stumbling towards the chauffeured car that Empire had offered him.

“I’d show you me garden,” Sean said, and he practically fell into the car when the chauffeur held the door open. His hand had somehow closed around Viggo’s wrist along the way. Viggo didn’t shake it off. Instead, he dropped into the car, leaning against the door as it was slammed closed.

Sean moved suddenly, throwing his hand out until it smacked against the glass window a bare inch away from Viggo’s face. Viggo blinked. Sean was grinning, a little lopsided, and definitely very drunk.

“Yer ain’t ever been ta me place,” Sean pointed out, and Viggo nodded for the lack of anything else to do. “I’ve got lots to show you.”

Viggo reminded himself to breathe.

“Come up to Idaho with me,” he said when he had enough air in his lungs to, his hand slipping into Sean’s hair. It was thick and heavy, strands of soft gold sliding against the callused knuckles of his hand. There wasn’t a single strand of grey. Viggo tried to memorise the various shades, because he didn’t know when he would let himself so close again. “I’ve horses and fields and…” he couldn’t think properly, blinded by gold, “plenty of things.”

“Yeah,” Sean said, turning his head and practically leaning into Viggo’s hand. His body was far too tense for someone as drunk as he smelled. Viggo’s breath caught. Slowly, he loosened his hand, letting it drop to Sean’s shoulder and clasped it.

“Yeah, that sounds good.”

Viggo didn’t remember stumbling back into the hotel; didn’t remember Sean collapsing onto the couch and him onto the bed. He only remembered waking up to an empty room, with a glass of water beside the nightstand and two Tylenol pills, and a small note folded underneath.

Viggo picked up the note, slugging back the water and swallowing the pills. He placed the glass down, and took a single breath.

Vig,

Forgot I was supposed to fly back to Germany this afternoon. Sorry. Looks like I’ll have to show you my garden some other day.

Sean


Slowly, he folded the note back into its exact creases. His mind was already shifting; trying to decide where this note would go in that box he kept.

Some other day.

Viggo had waited this long; he could wait even longer. He could learn to wait even longer.

He had to. He had to.

part 5: 24 December 2010

[identity profile] offski.livejournal.com 2012-04-07 06:06 am (UTC)(link)

Gah! So near and yet so far. Sometimes you just want to shake people, don't you?

[identity profile] evocates.livejournal.com 2012-04-08 05:59 am (UTC)(link)
Definitely. I'm writing them and I am getting frustrated to the shaking stage.

I should subtitle this as: The Cockblock Series. Because that's what it is. :X

(Anonymous) 2012-04-07 06:58 am (UTC)(link)
Never apologise for a giant one! ! - am looking forward to where you're going with this, you have suceeded so well in portraying the edginess and neediness of both these characters- the box analogy is genuinally touching too.
Thank you so much for posting!

[identity profile] evocates.livejournal.com 2012-04-08 06:00 am (UTC)(link)
Eeee, hello anon! /peers at

I'm mildly worried about the giant one because of other issues too, but thank you so much for commenting! ♥
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[personal profile] afra_schatz 2012-04-07 07:15 am (UTC)(link)
Ooh, some really wonderful lines in this - this one I liked in particular: Sheffield haunting the streets of London in the shape of Sean Bean’s drunken breath - and so much tactile right-there-in-the-moment atmosphere. Lovely.

[identity profile] evocates.livejournal.com 2012-04-08 06:02 am (UTC)(link)
I always get overly excited when someone whose fics I have admired actually comments to me. Pardon this moment of utter flailing. I don't remember if I have ever commented to you, but I should go back and reread again. 8D!!! /embarrasses herself

That line came straight out of Viggo's head, I swear. Thank you! ♥
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[personal profile] afra_schatz 2013-03-31 07:44 pm (UTC)(link)
I knew this was familiar :D. Turns out I had read this part previously. And that line I quoted is still my favourite!

[identity profile] evocates.livejournal.com 2013-04-01 08:25 am (UTC)(link)
Yes you did! I think this is the only part you have read until now. And awwww, you. /chuus. I'll get back to your other comments later, I promise. I'm just here to nawww at you. ♥

[identity profile] noalinnea.livejournal.com 2012-04-07 07:33 am (UTC)(link)
I love the line about Sheffield's accent, too! :) This story really gets to me, love the way you manage to convey so many emotions in so few words exchanged between them, so much longing, so much desire. I'm practically holding my breath when I'm reading this story, yes-because it's that good! Thanks a lot for a great read!

[identity profile] evocates.livejournal.com 2012-04-08 06:00 am (UTC)(link)
It's a good thing it's short then - I wouldn't want you to hold your breath for too long. :3

Thank you! ♥

[identity profile] bluegerl.livejournal.com 2012-04-07 08:01 am (UTC)(link)
OH Bloody hell. so near and yet so far. Poor beloved Viggo... and the stupid reticence of Bean, who is dying to let go and fold into Vigs.

OH I LOVE He felt as if he had been marked on the inside, Sean’s scent like ink settling deep into his lungs, writing his name on the insides of his ribs. Oh yes, yes, yes, so true it is.

And you've got the sudden movements of the rather well drunk - Sean's hand on the car window - can hear him slurring his words a bit... oh he is defensively drunk, and still holding back, afraid. Dammit man...

I do so LOVE your (my/our) Men.... you write them as if from the 'inside' of both. Quite delicious, a feast of Vigbean a la Evocates, au angst, l'amour et du passion. What a feast! I just want the rest of the banquet....

LOVE it to pieces dear lass. Thank you, and I look at my piccies of Them and hear your words. I am really such a stupid old bat. Need sorting really, but... whot the 'ell as Bean would say.

[identity profile] evocates.livejournal.com 2012-04-08 06:08 am (UTC)(link)
/flails at. How do you always leave lovely comments that have me entirely speechless and reduced to flapping my hands uselessly at the screen? (Like a penguin. Yes, really.)

You will have the rest! I've finished writing, so yes. :3 Thank you so, so much ♥♥♥!

[identity profile] bluegerl.livejournal.com 2012-04-08 08:43 am (UTC)(link)
You deserve all the nice things everyone says! Bless you. Love them happy ...
Edited 2012-04-08 08:44 (UTC)

[identity profile] alex-quine.livejournal.com 2012-04-07 11:34 am (UTC)(link)
This is an very human scene, your characters trying and failing to match their innermost desires with reality, trying and succeeding to take small steps along a possible path towards...who knows what.

[identity profile] evocates.livejournal.com 2012-04-08 06:03 am (UTC)(link)
The 'who knows what' is precisely the problem, isn't it? It's the danger of uncertainty and not knowing. :3

Thank you! ♥

[identity profile] j-flattermann.livejournal.com 2012-04-07 11:50 am (UTC)(link)
How cruel is that.
They met and that’s it until who knows when.
NOT FAIR!

[identity profile] evocates.livejournal.com 2012-04-08 06:01 am (UTC)(link)
They'll get there... eventually! Right now they are somehow behaving like like-poles on magnets, repelling and never attracting.

Thank you! ♥

[identity profile] j-flattermann.livejournal.com 2012-04-08 09:47 am (UTC)(link)
As sad as this makes me, that’s life.
But I am glad that you say “They are getting there eventually."

[identity profile] evocates.livejournal.com 2012-04-08 10:32 am (UTC)(link)
Oddly enough, when I write RPF things get much more realistic than if I write for any other fandom. I'm going to treat this as a good thing.

They are! Just... in five more parts. =X

[identity profile] rubyelf.livejournal.com 2012-04-07 05:16 pm (UTC)(link)
Some really amazingly beautiful lines and details here, the details of the touches between them and Viggo's intense awareness of Sean, and just lovely descriptions.

[identity profile] evocates.livejournal.com 2012-04-08 06:04 am (UTC)(link)
Fancy meeting you here!

Thank you so much for commenting ♥

[identity profile] rubyelf.livejournal.com 2012-04-08 10:27 am (UTC)(link)
I try to comment on fics when I read them... sometimes I'm in a rush, or at work. This one is lovely, and really, I hadn't read the other parts because (prepares to duck hurled objects and screams from flist) I am kind of not so hot on VigBean as most of my friends are, mostly just because I'm sort of tired of it, but this is definitely a different voice and I am enjoying it.

[identity profile] evocates.livejournal.com 2012-04-08 10:34 am (UTC)(link)
I'm glad it stands alone, honestly, because this is a series and if it stops making sense then it would be chaptered-fic and that would be Not Good. I thought you are more of a BillyDom shipper given your journal, and I totally understand getting tired of a pairing. I'm just happy that you read this. ♥

[identity profile] rubyelf.livejournal.com 2012-04-08 10:44 am (UTC)(link)
It DOES stand alone, and nicely. And as far as pairings... I only stumbled into the entire concept of slash fiction, and more specifically LoTR slash fiction, about a year and a half ago, and it's taken me some time to sort out what I really personally like best, both to read and to write, and over time the "Glass" story about Billy/Dom hit me and that's turned into an entire AU of its own, and that's sort of when they kind of clicked in my head. For FPS I just don't have a favorite pairing... I think that's why the ruby-verse is pretty much ensemble fic. I don't really have an OTP in FPS, unless it's Merry and Pippin because I love them together, and will write just about any pairing of the main characters happily.

But anyway, this is about YOUR fic, and this does stand alone beautifully... the sense of waiting and missed opportunities and Viggo's patience and Sean's reluctant response to the pull toward each other makes it a lovely story just as it is.

[identity profile] evocates.livejournal.com 2012-04-09 02:33 am (UTC)(link)
♥ Thank youuuuuu.

I've been writing slash for years and years (it started off as yaoi, and most of it is ew-worthy and I should delete them all), and I came back to LotR (I first came into 9 years ago just to trawl through fics and videos) because someone kept bugging me about Sean Bean, so I was massively biased already. I don't know how you write FPS - it intimidates me so much /sobs.

[identity profile] rubyelf.livejournal.com 2012-04-09 02:50 am (UTC)(link)
I think at this point the FPS characters have become so NOT how they were originally written that... I can't say they are my characters, because they're clearly not, but they are not the same ones the author wrote... and really, I spend a lot of time with some small part of my brain half-living in one AU or another... right now there's definitely some part of it living in the Billy/Dom story I posted the first part of on Friday, and another part living in a Merry/Pippin story I haven't started writing yet... and part of it is always meandering around the ruby-verse, my primary AU, and thinking of what's going on there...

[identity profile] vjezkova.livejournal.com 2012-04-07 07:24 pm (UTC)(link)
They are orbiting each other and always that stupid real life separates them. Really and truly this was wonderful because it was not just an alcohol haze.

[identity profile] evocates.livejournal.com 2012-04-08 06:04 am (UTC)(link)
The alcohol... helps, but it only amplified what was already there. :3

Thank you for commenting. ♥

[identity profile] caras-galadhon.livejournal.com 2012-04-08 10:54 am (UTC)(link)
What I find most fascinating about this part is how very vivid and authentic their drunkeness is. And I love how Viggo is very much indulging himself, and they're still circling each other (rather clumsily in this case), and yet neither one is able to just state the unspoken, take that step, and break through the barrier. So looking forward to the next bit!

[identity profile] evocates.livejournal.com 2012-04-09 02:22 am (UTC)(link)
I'm probably giving myself away about that, aren't I? I mean- moving on- !!!!

It will be far too easier if they just... take that step, but they are far too comfortable where they are at this point. Thank youu for commenting ♥

(Your icon is ridiculously attractive.)

[identity profile] govi20.livejournal.com 2012-04-10 10:20 am (UTC)(link)
Here she is again, Mrs. Late! I love everything about this part - and in fact the whole fic. Love their drunken, silly loveliness that you describe so well. The attraction between them is so clear and so almost unevitable. Still it's nice to keep hanging just there for some time, waiting for that little push that will make them tumble. Thank you for yet another lovely and so well written chapter.

[identity profile] evocates.livejournal.com 2012-04-11 05:30 am (UTC)(link)
I don't mind lateness. It's like an unexpected surprise, complete with the stunningly sexy icons. :3

Thank you for commenting ♥ (Also, I should've added you a long time ago. I don't know why I didn't. Do you mind?)

[identity profile] govi20.livejournal.com 2012-04-11 06:25 am (UTC)(link)
I am very glad you did, because I can now add you too! :D