His rage has it's origin in something else and is directed at something else and he chooses to make her suffer for it because he can, because it's easy, because sometimes he gets something out of insulting her, if only for a second. Maybe it makes him hate himself a little bit more and maybe that is a reward in itself at this point. Maybe he needs to degrade himself to feel anything, maybe he needs to disgust himself to feel alive.

Exactly. Exactly that. I love how you pick apart each and every text between them, because honestly? I wrote all this in a sickening rush in which I hated absolutely everything and it just turned out to be poison itself. I literally hate reading this part myself, I think, and there's part of me that's still slightly unbelieving that I'm actually capable of writing something so horrible and disgusting. >_> So none of what I wrote for this particular section is conscious except that I'm trying to keep the violence to words, because I think Sean - at least in this fic - is far better at attacking with words and facial expressions instead of actual physical actions. :3

/hugs tight. Seriously, I told you already, but reading all this made my day so much better. I'm just so, so happy you like this. ♥♥♥!