I really, really like it. Because it's exactly the way life is sometimes- ugly. And there are so many ways you can fuck your life up or life can fuck you up and I am glad every day for the way my life has turned out so far. I like positive endings (I probably overdosed on Disney as a child, like everybody else did) but it is so much more interesting to read about real problems and tragedies (and I am not implying that any of this is true, what I am saying is that there surely are people with exactly these problems). I think I mentioned it before, but the film that touched me most during the past years was "Biutiful" with Javier Bardem. It's a disaster from the beginning to the very end, and there isn't as much as a tiny spark of hope that you can carry home with you but it is incredibly well told. Torturous and ugly but masterly told. And Bardem is frighteningly good.
But, anyway, your story :) To me the violence lies in the conversation itself, physical violence often isn't far away but you are the boss here, if you say he wouldn't hit her then I'm going to believe you. I certainly would not like him to be anywhere near me in this state. The thought that he is writing to her instead of writing to Viggo certainly is an interesting one. It shows the level of his derangement but cannot serve as something resembling an excuse of doing this to her. His rage has it's origin in something else and is directed at something else and he chooses to make her suffer for it because he can, because it's easy, because sometimes he gets something out of insulting her, if only for a second. Maybe it makes him hate himself a little bit more and maybe that is a reward in itself at this point. Maybe he needs to degrade himself to feel anything, maybe he needs to disgust himself to feel alive. It certainly is a sad picture but how bad he might feel this is not a justification for behaving like that towards someone you claim to have loved and who trusted you. Relationships make you vulnerable on very many levels and it is incredibly unfair to use the knowledge you have gained about someone in the course of an relationship against them afterwards. The other person knows things about you that you might want to erase at the end of an relationship but you can't and it can be tempting at times to use this knowledge when you are hurt but he should know better by then. He knows he is provoking her, his call doesn't serve any other purpose, dialing her number instead of Viggo's is a provocation in itself already because he does not want to talk to her and she is not what he wants, maybe she never has been, and of course he feels bitter because of that. You want a pony for Christmas and by mistake end up with a hamster, sure this sucks and who wouldn't be pissed but beating the hamster to pulp won't help.
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But, anyway, your story :)
To me the violence lies in the conversation itself, physical violence often isn't far away but you are the boss here, if you say he wouldn't hit her then I'm going to believe you. I certainly would not like him to be anywhere near me in this state. The thought that he is writing to her instead of writing to Viggo certainly is an interesting one. It shows the level of his derangement but cannot serve as something resembling an excuse of doing this to her. His rage has it's origin in something else and is directed at something else and he chooses to make her suffer for it because he can, because it's easy, because sometimes he gets something out of insulting her, if only for a second. Maybe it makes him hate himself a little bit more and maybe that is a reward in itself at this point. Maybe he needs to degrade himself to feel anything, maybe he needs to disgust himself to feel alive. It certainly is a sad picture but how bad he might feel this is not a justification for behaving like that towards someone you claim to have loved and who trusted you. Relationships make you vulnerable on very many levels and it is incredibly unfair to use the knowledge you have gained about someone in the course of an relationship against them afterwards. The other person knows things about you that you might want to erase at the end of an relationship but you can't and it can be tempting at times to use this knowledge when you are hurt but he should know better by then. He knows he is provoking her, his call doesn't serve any other purpose, dialing her number instead of Viggo's is a provocation in itself already because he does not want to talk to her and she is not what he wants, maybe she never has been, and of course he feels bitter because of that. You want a pony for Christmas and by mistake end up with a hamster, sure this sucks and who wouldn't be pissed but beating the hamster to pulp won't help.