These first lines, teeth meeting teeth and Viggo's tension- it's a terrible moment to witness and it makes you wish that he'd have enough sense to prevent himself from doing it. But he has just walked straight though a shattered glass bottle, that shows that there isn't enough thinking going on in his head at the moment. He should know better. He should know better than to walk through the glass- it's going to hurt- and he should no better than to impose himself on Viggo- it's going to hurt. He is driven only by alcohol, desperation and selfishness and it's not pretty. But it's fascinating that he actually is acting now. He seems to have stopped running, seems to have turned around and started walking into the right direction (principally the right direction, the way he proceeds is completely wrong though) and once he is walking he doesn't care if there is glass in his way. And what are hurting feet compared to an aching heart? You can almost always stick up wounds and there is the wonderful world of pharmacology that offers an extensive collection of painmeds but a broken heart we still cannot cure...
It's not strange that he doesn't feel the pain. Can happen if you are running high on adrenaline. And he surely is. Also he has been trying his best to ignore certain thoughts, certain desires, surely also many physical reactions during the past decade, he might just feel oddly detached from everything.
I love this line: "Jesus Christ, what the hell are you doing to yourself,” Viggo said. It wasn’t even a question. To Viggo of course the blood painfully colors the picture of the mess Sean is in, especially in combination with the inappropriate kiss. We don't know what he has sensed, figured out during the years but I would guess that he has not realized the extend of Sean's problems before.
And of course Viggo's pity is not what he wants. It must be painful to see the man you have wanted for so long look at you with nothing but pity (because doesn't this mean that-whatever he might have fantasized about- there is no way for them to be together? Viggo is at a completely different point, towering above him, intact, healthy, stable- and he might extend his hand to drag him up from the bloodied floor into a sitting position but he surely won't invite him into his life as a partner, as his equal. If he ever has been attracted to Sean he surely isn't anymore). Viggo drops to his knees in front of him but not for the reason that Sean might have dreamed of- it's for damage control and Sean's touches are completely out of place.
I like your Viggo throughout these moments. It's actually as if he has taken a course in de-escalation strategies. He stays calm despite the bloody mess, despite Sean's touches and his weird focus on Viggo that is completely made up and doesn't have anything to do with the Viggo in front of him. Viggo clearly does not want to rehash past sentiments, I'd guess that there are things much more important in his life than Sean who he hasn't seen in a long time but he still seems to care and of course he wants his friend to be well. And he says it himself here, that of course he does not see Sean the same way he has seen him in NZ. His state is frightening and it's not an appealing picture.
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It's not strange that he doesn't feel the pain. Can happen if you are running high on adrenaline. And he surely is. Also he has been trying his best to ignore certain thoughts, certain desires, surely also many physical reactions during the past decade, he might just feel oddly detached from everything.
I love this line: "Jesus Christ, what the hell are you doing to yourself,” Viggo said. It wasn’t even a question.
To Viggo of course the blood painfully colors the picture of the mess Sean is in, especially in combination with the inappropriate kiss. We don't know what he has sensed, figured out during the years but I would guess that he has not realized the extend of Sean's problems before.
And of course Viggo's pity is not what he wants. It must be painful to see the man you have wanted for so long look at you with nothing but pity (because doesn't this mean that-whatever he might have fantasized about- there is no way for them to be together? Viggo is at a completely different point, towering above him, intact, healthy, stable- and he might extend his hand to drag him up from the bloodied floor into a sitting position but he surely won't invite him into his life as a partner, as his equal. If he ever has been attracted to Sean he surely isn't anymore). Viggo drops to his knees in front of him but not for the reason that Sean might have dreamed of- it's for damage control and Sean's touches are completely out of place.
I like your Viggo throughout these moments. It's actually as if he has taken a course in de-escalation strategies. He stays calm despite the bloody mess, despite Sean's touches and his weird focus on Viggo that is completely made up and doesn't have anything to do with the Viggo in front of him. Viggo clearly does not want to rehash past sentiments, I'd guess that there are things much more important in his life than Sean who he hasn't seen in a long time but he still seems to care and of course he wants his friend to be well. And he says it himself here, that of course he does not see Sean the same way he has seen him in NZ. His state is frightening and it's not an appealing picture.